11.27.2003
So I really haven't posted much this year, and today is Thanksgiving. There's a lot to be thankful for, but that sounds cliche. I've been cooking my Tofurkey(r) and now I think it's done. The dumplings didn't come out but oh well.
The more I look at things the more I have no idea what I'm doing. Is going into academia really going to accomplish what I want to accomplish for the world? What will? What is the first priority? Looking at AIDS policy stuff, it's not just enough to keep people alive longer. Or making sure that children have vaccines. That's not enough. Then I am doing what I hate in the republican pro-choice faction -- making sure people stay alive but not doing anything to help their quality of life. But can you do both at once? Should you do one first?
What kind of time am I wasting in school? There are so many problems...what can I do? Am I making the most out of my tuition dollars? Is it selfish for me to want a job that pays well so that I can make sure my children are not spoiled, but never limited by money? Is that selfish when there are so many people who can't even eat every day?
The author of the book about the murder in NYC with 38 witnesses asked the questions: "How far away do you have to be from a murder to be absolved? To not have any responsibility?" This is knowing about it... Ten miles? Hundreds of miles? What about the Holocaust? What about genocides and police killings taking place every day? What about regimes that 'silence' dissentors? And we know about them and what are we doing...what am I doing? Nothing. I am guilty. I am guilty, too.
But is this the way to look at it? What can I do? What can I do? This will not be solved by studying the way children learn or by becoming a farmer in Norway or by being a cantor or campaigning to get so-and-so elected. What will it be solved by?
A girl in my Psych section says she believes that people are inherently bad and that there are only a few good people, but that has to be bullshit. If it's not I can't believe she hasn't killed herself. What is the point, then? Why would people be inherently 'bad'? And if they are... then... what is she doing? What the fuck is she doing?
Too many questions and not enough answers.
Happy Thanksgiving. I'm grateful.
11.21.2003
Whoa.
Long time. Loooooooooong time.
So things are really good. They are. It's fucking cold here but still good. Let's see.... Things are good. Blood bank stuff is going good. We have our first 'Basmati Raas' practice Sunday, and I'm totally totally excited!!!! Now you've got the magic stick...
Lalala.... I don't really have much to say. I have work I have to do this weekend but that's not so important. Big Game is tomorrow. And tomorrow is the 22nd which is really important.
Can we get connected
I need some love & affection baby
Yeah digital getdown.
Anyway. Man. This is such a boring post. Sorry.
And listen to the banghara version of Ace of Base's "All That She Wants."
Cos I know I don't understand
Just how your love can do what no one else can
Your love's got me looking so crazy right now
--Beyonce
11.08.2003
Hmmm...Wow. It's been a really really really long time.
What's new? Good things: Volunteering at SBC is great. I love it.
I'm having a play I wrote performed in January.
I'm on the o3-04 raas-garba competition team, which rocks. Seeing as I have no clue how to use dhandia, haha. Yay 1/2 the team having already been to ER for it.
Yay Hungarian.
I am sooooooo tired. I went to bed so late. I am definitely feeling it right now. My eyes are almost swollen shut. (unrelated to time)
life....sigh.
