8.30.2003
More fun stuff I did: I went to Cattails and got to see lions & tigers (& pumas & leapords but no bears). I got really neat soda, including "Leninade: Get hammered & sickled!" I saw Gonzega. I saw the rose & japanese gardens. Wow.
So I'm just kickin it I'm counting the days. Why does my school not start soon? Why why why why why why why? This is the terrible part of the year. But! The good news is I get to be there through mid-June. I loved that bit.
That's all.
8.27.2003
Wow...I just had a super super week. I can't remember when I had just a week devoted to fun the whole time. It was great. I rode a carosel, had 5 garden burgers, went to the lake, went swimming in freezing water twice, went paddleboating, went to a water park (in Idaho!), saw all the sites Spokane has to offer, saw wheatfields & escaped goats, had Dip 'n' Dots (which are really good), went shopping a few times, put on a fake tattoo, went to mass for the first time ever, went to the Davenport which is gorgeous, meet people I'd heard a lot about, saw the falls & river, watched 5 or 6 movies, got new songs (including Luvdrukn if anyone wants it), met a lot of people, drank just enough, saw Tim in a kippah, played with Lady, used the bathroom fan, and got to hang out with my incredibly fun boyfriend for almost an entire week with nothing to do. It was super.
Hmm...I think Spokane is a great city. Everyone there complains about it, but it looked about a bazillion times more interesting than here. At least. It has a bluff! And the view at night is great. And a park with a pool... And everyone there smokes. Completely. At a party we were outside and out of the 10 people Tom & I were the only ones not smoking (and isn't that great??). But it was really crazy.
And I slept until 3 today which was also good. And I figured out classes which makes me so so so so happy. Yay!
And school doesn't start for another 24 days which makes me UNhappy, but at least it's not as far away as it used to be...
Anyway.
This past evening was the only time the 5 of us were all in town at once...kind of trippy really. Like, 12 hours or something. Really crazy.
And I'm almost 19.
I feel like I should have so much to say but I really don't. I'm just happy.
Love is real
It is not just in novels or the movies
It is fact
And it is standing here in front of you
So if you open your eyes
Oh what a sweet discovery
There is hope and there is joy and there is acceptance
So now let all of the light that collects on your plants
Keep you warm make you smile
And I will be there with this pen in my hand
To record all the while
You'll be laughing so loud
That the house would shake with sound
And everything will be as new as the day it was found...
Oh and then I will send you the world green & blue
In a box through the mail
You can open it up hold it right in your hand
And be glad that it's there
And be glad that you're there
Now you can feel all the knots in your stomach start to untie
And suddenly it's not so hard to say you're alright
--Bright Eyes
8.18.2003
Ain't that funny?
Well...the weekend was awesome. Aside from that I found out that I can get visably drunk over dinner from one drink...and in front of parents that's not good.
Anyway. I'm leaving tomorrow for Washington & I'm excited as fuck. But I have so much to do today! And I'm setting up all the computers to be on Jaguar instead of just os x. It's kinda fun though. Yeah wireless printing.
And I'm feeling kind of fucked up, like I'm drunk on your skin.
8.14.2003
Well...what else to say. I want to go back to school so desperately. But hopefully the edge will be taken off by my weekend trip & then my weeklong trip... Yay Washington. I used to be more nervous but now I'm getting really really excited... I mean, it's normal for Catholics to scare me a little, right? :)
So. Yes. And... hmmm. I really want to go back to school. I cannot believe I have over a month. This is the worst part of the year, when everyone starts leaving and then I'm stuck here... I should go visit my grandma I think. But at least I'll have someone in town for my birthday...Last year blew. Anyhoo.
What classes do I take? I need to figure that out. I know I'm shopping Hebrew & Hungarian and I'm planning on taking the latter as long as it fits & the teacher isn't terrible (if they are then I'll take Hebrew). I need to take Psych 1. I want to take Psych 60 & Psych 60A, I want to take a religious studies class, maybe Math 52, maybe Intro to Fiction Writing, maybe Philosophy or Fem Studies or Econ 1. I want to take...aagghh...swim conditioning & social dances of north america... Do I take 10 units of Psych or 5 or 8? Will it be bad if I don't take a religous studies class? Could I take 8 Psych, 4 Rel Stud, 3 Hungarian, 5 math? That's a lot. That's reeeally a lot. Especially because I want to do other things. And I want to have a life. I have a single, I might as well enjoy it. :)
I do need to take Math 52, and I really don't want to take it on track again... Hmmm. Maybe... maybe I'll just shop a lot and then decide whatever appeals to me. That might make the first couple weeks awful but hey! Who cares, huh?
Probably not you. So, if I just put you through a lot of nonsense about my schedules that you probably don't understand all of & definitely don't care about, then sorry.
I just want the time schedule to be out. I'm not finding it on axess. Is anyone else?
Okay, so that's really all. Oh, and would anyone happen to know why I can't get to axess on my laptop right now? I can from my mom's computer...
Anyhoo, that's all.
8.13.2003
It's so gangsta it'll calm all that jealously and
Drama you tellin me so mama come yell at me
So I can put the top down & we can cruise like Tom & Penelope
My charm is a felony
--Fabolous
You know what's really good? Poetry. Here are poets you should check out:
Peter Meinke (sample book: Liquid Paper)
Carolyn Forche (sample book: The Country Between us -- I think the best book of poems I've ever read)
Langston Hughes (sample book: Selected poems)
If I think of others I'll post them. Poets you should not check out:
Maya Angelou
I really enjoy her prose but her poetry -- not so much.
Look but don't touch ... think twice
Cos this gat that I clutch got a little red light
Need a light?
To smoke that la la la
Beanie Sigel always smoking that la la la
Memph Bleek always smoking that la la la
It's the ROC mami sing our lullabye...
Hold up skip all the singing let's get ride tonight
Mami
Forget English, talk body language...
Please excuse yourself you're very sick
--Jay Z
8.11.2003
Well, I am back from Wisconsin.
I don't have much else to say.
They are lost in their houses
I've heard them singing in the shower
Making speeches to their sister on the telephone
Saying you come home woman you come here
Don't stay so far away from me
This weather's got me wanting love more tangible
Something I can hold
Cos it's getting cold
--Bright Eyes
8.03.2003
Holla back, youngun!
And you all thought I was too white for that. Huh.
So I played guitar! It's really fun. Now that I know like 5 chords I can just strum them and sing most of the Bright Eyes songs. Not that my singing is by any means spectacular either, but it's soooooo much fun. I'm like, hey! Look! I'm Connor Oberst! (except I'm not really, but I guess you knew that) I love those songs. The most recent one I played for my dad I'm like "okay this is sad" and he's like "Well, it's not that sad one that you made me listen to is it?" I said no, so I played it and the first 2 lines are "I had a brother once / He drowned in a bathtub" and my dad's like "oh God." And then the chorus is just talking about suicide... Ain't that funny... All those songs are so sad except for... Bowl of Oranges...and maybe Balance Beam but only if you listen closely...And I guess Let's Not Shit Ourselves is about a guy RECOVERING from a suicide attempt... Hmm... Wow. Suicide is pretty common in these songs I guess. Amy In the White Coat is about a girl whose father rapes her... God. Sad.
Nothing much else...still reading. Talked to the rabbi. He's wonderful. I feel so bad leaving him this week especially.
The trip should be good! I've got my ipod...& my hashpipe. :) I got my hash pipe.
My dad said something interesting, which is that Bright Eyes seems to be a lot like Bob Dylan in terms of kind of ballads...telling a story... (and, also, neither of them have fabolous singing voices...haha). But that kind of is true. Kind of.
Marry him or marry me
I'm the one who loves you baby can't you see?
I ain't got no future or family tree
But I know what a prince & lover ought to be
But I know what a prince & lover ought to be
So if you want to call me baby just go ahead now
If you want to tell me maybe just go ahead now
If you want to buy me flowers just go ahead now
If you want to talk for hours...
--Spin Doctors (I'll leave you to guess the end of that last line. Tricky, huh??)
8.02.2003
I also forgot to add I'm not going to West Virginia. And I'm too lazy to check and make sure that no other states begin with W.
I am in the midst of a sad lack of inspiration. But it's okay. I just sat around all day & read & took 1 shower & 2 baths & watched Friends. Everything is just kind of quiet and lazy...
I still don't know
If there is some better place I could be headed towards
Where the selfishly sick and self-absorbed
Are welcome
--Bright Eyes
